Yeah today kinda blows. My sister is performing at the sexpo. how's that for warming things up? all you ignorant kids at northwestern who think your problems start with you don't have the right shoe to shirt combination. MY SISTER IS PERFORMING AT THE SEXPO. A bunch of sick drooly perverted men are going to be oogling her while she tries to convince herself she's bringing culture and beauty to a slime hole. please kill me now. i love her so much. i think i might puke.

i can't wait to move out of school. there's too much stuff going on behind my back instead of just talking to me. i should just be mean to give people a reason to not talk to me.

this world is never going to get any better. whats the point? God? id rather be a robot than this crapload of free will garbage.

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okay, so seriously. Do I just have some weird auroa that attracts gross hormone driven out of control men to me? seriously. If it wasn't against my personal opinions I would just become a freaking lesbian. (not really, sorry, thats a lie)

yeah. hanging out with matt yesterday went swell, oh wait except that it didn't. I totally thought he was such a sweet guy, and I guess I was, once again, wrong. He duped me. That's not easy to do. I usually have a pretty accurate judge of character. Whatever.

You know, the more I think about it the more I think relationships with the opposite sex in general are kinda futile mission. I can't even think of a couple that I know that has stayed together actualy through the long haul. Well, okay, one, Lyssa's folks, but no one else who is actually still happily married besides them, you know?

I think I would much rather enjoy just being totally free to do whatever I want, and not be tied to some other person. I was watching sex and the city yesterday and Miranda was having a freak out about her bf moving in and she was all being "I like independance" and whatnot. I agree. I mean, I can understand where she is coming from. I am not the type who welcomes that kind of stuff. I think I am a commit-a-phobic.

Anyway, I really should go see if my car is starting today and try to get my butt over to coach speech.

Oh and Matt? Since you read this from time to time, go die. I hope you get electrocuted by your amp.  (seriously)

went and hung out with cj and lego today, t'was great.

we all went to see ultraviolet, (including mark as well) not so great.

picked up lyssa from random gas station, t'was super funny.

got her mad at me within 20 min. for mentioning stupid secret..not so funny.

made really loud "sex" noises in cj's room with lyssa, t'was great.

cj's roomates walking into the house and hearing us, not so great. (but still funny)

planning to dump cold water on cj while showering, funny

taking an ariel shot of him showering without his knowledge, way way way funnier.

ahhhhh. I love when all is right with the world for once.

     So I went and talked to Joe (my art prof and possibly the coolest man i have ever met) because I can alway vent to him about how much this school drives me insane, and it made me just feel so much better. I dunno what it is about Joe but I always feel better after talking to him. I think it's just because I don't have to pretend like everything is going just awesome all the time, and I can actually tell him when life is kickin my butt or if I discover something else about this school that drives me crazy. yeah...joe is a cool guy.

     I am so flipping excited to see my lyssa! I am excited to see cj too on friday, but come on...if you put cj and lys in a ring, lys would totally kill him. So it's okay for me to be more excited to see her. he he.

     oh, and can we just say how flippin glad I am that it's spring break?? Me and Anna are gonna chill, it'll be fun.